I have been a Christian for many years. As we all know at times Satan can give us a fit and even have us wondering if what we have it real. This morning I could not wait till the alter call...I had to go and pray with the preacher to be sure my entire life belonged to him. I knew that I was saved but I could not seem to get my life to line up with his and all of that was of course my fault. Well now I know that I know that I know if I died today I would go to be with him in Heaven. That is what I want more than anything in this world along with seeing my family be ready to go with me.
Pray for me and mine that we will draw even closer. I could not wait to share this with anyone reading this blog.
All praise goes to the FATHER. I am his and he is mine. Ask yourself if there is anything standing between you and Jesus that is keeping you from worshiping like you should. God bless you all. I love you. HE loves you even more.

Tamara,Jay and the girls came by and ended up staying up till supper. I had a very nice necklace set I was suppose to give Tamara at Christmas and I had forgotten. I gave them to her tonight with anohter pair that were similar. I wanted to give the girls something and started going through my jewerly. I think they went home with three necklaces and some ear rings. They seemed to be very happy. Meredith was trying to decide what she was going to wear to church in the morning.
It is nice when you can give something to someone and see the thank you in their eyes. I bought the jewelry on sale and it made every worth every nickle I paid.
I love my grand daughters and they are very special. I hope they love their nanny just a littl bit back. May God bless them and keep them close to his heart.Elaine

You should never write a post that you are a little miffed about because some one might read it and get the wrong idea. I was ticked that someone was ill with me over showing me how to work something on the computer and it hust my feelings.
Dawn I never meant that I was upset with you over it. I has written the post before I asked you to help me with the music and stuff.I know it is hard to do anything over the phone and I was willing to wait.
I hope you really did not get your feelings hurt because I promise I was not pointing toward you.I was lashing out of others and said too much. You know I appreciate all the teaching you have been doing with me. I know how to do many more things in the past few years than ever,with your help. So do not worry I will still be wanting you to teach me things all along. I always need help and you know that.
Love you and thank you very much.Elaine

On New Years Eve my husband and I had a stress test....I said what a better way to keep your marriage strong than doing all things together. It was an experience, but honestly it was not bad, and if we had been in better shape it would not have been anywhere near as bad. It showed me just how out of shape I am. I made the six minute test but it took a lot of praying and I give God the credit not me. Then next day I called and opened our gym memberships again. We have not been yet because I wanted us to wait till we get the results from the tests. That is suppose to be tomorrow.
I have to admit that I am a little scared. I do not mean to be because I know that God is in control of ALL things and his will shall be done. I will just be glad to know what the doctor has to say and go on. I need to be well to be here for Tom. I do not want to have anything wrong but I do not want Tom to go through anymore than he has. I would give myself in his place at anytime. I have come close to losing him a couple times in the past two years and it is not a place I want to be again. I pray for God's Mercy at all times for both of us and others who go through those hard times.
They say that writing these posts are good for you to relax and I am seeing that it is but I know that it has to be boring to others but I know that not many people read it so I will keep trying. Dawn I will not give up. Your push on things helps me at times more than you will ever know. Glad we are in this phase of our lives together and hope it continues for as long as God allows.

To get up and get going was what I had planned for the new year. It seems that here it is 20th day of the year and I really have done nothing toward my goal. I did work on cleaning out our bedroom yesterday and even though there are somethings that still need to go I started.

My dad was a pack rat and I took that after him, "You never know when you or someone might need this so do not get rid of it". He and my mom gave me many things and I can not bear to get rid to them. I did start today by throwing away two of my moms old table cloths that were so old they fell apart when I washed them. I am so bad till I would not burn candles because I hated to see them gone. That has changed also...I have started using them and as they burn out I take out more. I will not tell a huge lie because I still have two sets that I can not bring myself to use but I am working on that too.

I wanted to work on being a better Christian, wife, mother, mother in law, grandmother, friend and be better at my job. I did not start out very well on the motherhood thing. You are to never question God but at times I wonder at his letting me be a mother. I have never been very good at it and it seems the older they get the worse I am. People that write all these raising children books well I wonder if they even have children or if they live in a wonder world. I think I could write a book but it would be called How not to raise children. That is a different post for maybe another day.

I still have eleven months and so many days to work on organization and getting up and getting gone. I am going to work at it and pray that others who seem to have the same lazy problem will get up and get going.....Good luck.

Last week I had a virus that is going around and it was awful. I was sick from Wednesday till Sunday. I prayed everyday(when my mind came back to me) that I would rather have it again than to have my husband and best friend have it. Tom has heart problems and she just had liver surgery about three weeks ago. God may have answered that prayer because this morning getting ready for work I was sick and dizzy again. I still mean what I prayed but I do need to be at work to help her and be there for her so she does not overdo things, from having the surgery.
I am on my way to the doctor for a regular visit so I am going to see what we can do and check on the just plain not ever feeling good. I am so tired of getting up in the morning and not ever feeling good. I know I am getting older but I am not dead yet.
I am sure there are others that have the same problem and are tired of being tired too. I am going to be praying for anyone with this problem. Maybe we need to start an "I am going to feel better no matter what" club. Ha Anyone interested? Maybe it is all in my head and I really do not feel bad so I could need all the help a club could give me. Until after the doctor visit...

I have been thinking a lot about the New Year that is ahead of us. I am not making any resolutions because I never keep any of them if I do.
I had a friend tell me that I needed to do one of two things....one, take care of what I wanted done or two...shut up complaining about them. I have thought about that I am inclined to agree with her. I am not sure what I am going to do about all that I want done but I do know that I have to do something.
I am going to start out by praying about the things that need to be changed. I want to get my life with God closer like I said in my last entry. That is the most important thing. I have been much closer and I do not want to go back to that I want to take it one step more and be even closer and work harder. Join me in this prayer that I might be able to reach it and be the servent I need to be.
I wish everyone the very best of New Years and may God bless you.